Sometimes It's hard to understand myself, especially when I don't knwo what I want. I've been anxious to wait for the last class, the only chance to see him yesterday, and I ended up with a conclusion...I dont wanna see him anymore.....
I was stupid enough that I couldn't find my Japanese Lang. classroom. I gave him a call and decided to find the classroom together. And, while I was waiting for him...I actually found the stupid classroom..It's inside freshman seminar's office!! HOW THE HELL WOULD YOU THINK OF HAVING YOUR SENIOR(4000 level) COURSES TO BE HELD INSIDE THE FRESHMAN (1000 level)SEMINAR'S OFFICE?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!? I'm glad I'm not the only that got lost. Stupid Stupid Room Assignment!!! ><""" Anyway that's besides the point now...I went back out and waited for him. He came up from the escalator surrounded by a bunch of girls. Oh trust me, I felt like shit at that moment. I never know that I'm THAT sensitive with girls around him... and I hate myself soo much...x_x sigh...
Maybe 4 days in Chicago can clear up my feelings a little bit. And I'm in desperate need of catching up in Japs. For god's sake! I learnt NOTHING in 3000 Level...and I'm having super hugh big time in the 4000 level japanese in business useage ...Can someone pls remind me why (besides to take a class w/ him....x_x") am I taking this class again?????? Urgh!!!!!!!! ><""
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sor por... watever you're feeling now.... just receive it as it comes..... these are special feelings... and they're part of growth..... everyone will have different expereinces, don't feel troubled.... :)
hehe. you don't need to hate yourself at all la sor por. though it will make you jealous big time but hey, think it another way. it stlil a happy feeling. cuz you found someone you like. hehe...so did u have fun in Chicago?
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