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Ahh~~~~~~I lost my inoocent look forever la~~ muahahahaa...went to get a hari cut today..and the stylist talked me into "din" my hair lor...I dunno does it look good or not, the only thing I know is...it's VERY EXPENSIVE!!

I really doubt that I will do this again, haha..maybe when I'm losing my mind...I'll spend hundreds of dollars to get a hair cut, but not in the recnet future la...soo "yuk tong" ...my wallet is crying now~ wahwuwuwuuu...~ ><~

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It was a big night last night, as least for Berry and Cheraine, it was their first day of their marriage. I was kinda surprised that I'm invited to their wedding party. I don't know them too well, only seem them few times before. But then, since the whole company were planning to go, I decided to go and give my blessing.

It was a small party but all their familes and friends are there. I could feel that they are really happy about this. And, believe it or not, I wore a skirt last night. it's a big news to me...muahahaa~ I hadn't ware a dress/skirt even since elementary school. It was awkard for me to walk around in a skirt. but oh wells...all the girls were wearing dress/skirt last nite, who am i kidding with if I'm the only girl wearing a pair of pants, that's too weird. lolz~

their wedding is more like a gathering or reunion w/ the ex-company's co-workers. I missed them a lot, especially Hong and Wah~ they were always the sunshine in the office. There were always laughters when they're in the office. And you know, for a sec, I was thinking, why did I leave CWCB in the first place? I missed them so much, and I'm not exactly having a wonderful time in the new company.

It's not that I don't like my co-workers or whatsoever...It's just that, I dont get to see people walking around in the office anymore. It's always me and Karen. I really feel lonely sometimes, working alone in a small office is a torture sometimes. I missed doing live shows, and you know...believe it or not, the time that I always look forward to in that little office is 12 o'clock, not because it's time to go, but it's time to report news. It's a chance to do live. I'm desperate, I know~ hahahaaa...

Anyway, I shouldn't complain about my job because it's the only place I can do whatever I want to do~ oh wellz, There's always a price to pay for what you want. that's life i guessed.

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I had such a great day today. I went out with Mr. Onion, (after he ditched me yesterday....><") and we went to Lok Ming Chuen for lunch. It was kinda funny because the waiter keep asking us to get "dumpling", which is the siu lung bau, hahaha...we needed to "dap toi" la...and all the other ppl were eating siu lung bau, haha...it's kinda weird...more like peer pressure, forcing us to get siu lung bau too, but we didn't, of cause! haha..

well, something out of expected today, i was joking today, saying he should have get me hand letter from HK, and he reaction is.."oh..i almost forgot." and took out a big box from his bag. hee..I'm surprised~ and I like the phone a lot. Thanks! =)


Here's the photo of the phone. it's cute isn't it? hee....Too bad my hand was shaking when I took the picture. Should've get a better photo, but anyway~ hee...nice lunch~ i'll remember to order siu lung bau next tiem when I'm in Luk Ming Chuen.

oh~ btw...I went to Berry and Cheraine's wedding party tonite. but I'll talk about that tmr, gonna sleep now..soo tired. ZZZzzzz.....

Fireworks

It's July 4th...congrats America!

i was watching fireworks on tv few mins ago...and then I turn it off right away for no reason...I dont feel like watching it by myself anymore...It made me feel lonely....

I dunno~ I'm having mood swing soo often these days that sometimes I don't seem like I know myself anymore. I guess mood swings is a unique characteristic of being a woman...an excuse to "fat pei hei" or feeling down...hahaa...

The feeling of being lonely is....soo weird and odd...It's like, for a second...your life is all filled up with what you want...and the next second, you find out there's no one you can share your joys with. It's also like...when you look around and there's no one who can understand you. No even the ones that claim to be your "best friends". This is not a complaint against the fact that I don't have a companion in my life yet, rather, this is just something that upset me a little...that in fact, not even my so-called "best friends" are willing to understand what I think....at all.

When everyone is so obsessed with what's going on in their lives, It's getting harder for them (and for me) to get to know someone. If someone is willing to keep up with the friendship...they wouldn't just leave me hanging there and accused me of being inconsiderate or insensitive. I often wonder why....when they need help..they would come to me for advise and expect me to help them....but when I'm down...no one would want to take my back.

It's not the first time...and I know for sure that it won't be the last time. I'm tired of this whole "friendship" thing. It will never get me to anywhere. I'm tireed of being the "funny girl" in front of you. I'm tired of being the good listener in front of you. I'm tired of being accused with something that I never do. I'm tired of being ignored. I'm tired of you.

Can someone get me out of this mess?