A letter for you

this is for someone (you know who you are)...

I'm kinda pissed the other day because of what you said, seriously...after the phone call...i spent the whole night thinking am I too "siu hei" and am I jealous of you and your new boyfriend. The answer is....YES! and hell yea...of coz it's a "YES". Like what I told you before, I'm not mature enough to take it easy coz my best friend is not hanging out with me anymore. I'm really jealous of your boyfriend becasue you are seeing him every week~ and I dont get to hang out with you anymore...do you see my point?

I was here way before your boyfriend lighten up your life, and I'm still here when you're having someone you treasure lighting up your life...but then, how can you treat me like your backup plan after you're seeing someone? I'm really jealous...and i admit that i'm "siu hei" too. How can I not be? can you imagine that maybe one day...I'm seeing someone and totally ignore your feeling?

I want you to know how I feel because I trust you, I dont trust ppl that easily...and you know why. I only have guts to confront my best friend because I trust you with my life. I know that at the end you will know how I feel too. I know you have no intention to hurt me, but the fact is..it does hurt. You gave me an impression that you don't need me anymore, that scared me.

Honey, I love you very much, and I really don't wanna do this over and over again because I know I'm getting tired of this. and believe it or not, fighting w/ your boyfriend over a date to hang out w/ you is the silliest thing to do. Anyway... this is all i wanna say. I'm not trying to accuse you as a bad friend... That angry moment passed right after I read your message. i'm not angry with you anymore. i'm just trying to share my thoughts with you. this is what i think about our friendship lately...Give me a call if you wanna tell me what you think.